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5 more days till contract law. 

“The way you're singing in your sleep
The way you look before you leap
The strange illusions that you keep
You don't know
But I'm noticing

The way your touch turns into arcs
The way you slide into the dark
The beating of my open heart
You don't know
But I'm noticing”

Dry the river- History Book

"It is difficult when you remember things. You remember because it is important to you, because it matters. And it is difficult because it is supposed to matter, yet they dont remember. " 

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I don't usually think about - but when I do, it is during the lone hours when my body is asleep and my mind is trapped in the memory closet. Here, everything comes pouring down. Like fireworks, like rain, like hail, like confetti, like sunlight, like snow, like petals and feathers lost in the wind, everything comes pouring down into a primordial soup of  remorse, sadness, happiness, lust, anger, hurt, loneliness, bitterness- but, love makes its presence. For love, it stays. For love, here is where my mind bathes, at least until the morning light, before it dries it up again. 

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You,
can destroy this empty city I built.
You,
can find me by the steps, by the bridge, by the river, by the moon, by the drunk, by the drink we shared to celebrate our forgotten lives.  
You,
can kiss me on the lips and never let go.   

I think it used to mean
making enough
every day
to provide for the people you love,
and loving enough
so that those people
would also provide for you.

It seems like now it means
making more than you could ever need or use
and keeping as much of it as possible
because you don’t have time
every day
to love anyone enough
for them to want to share.

The pursuit of happiness, dallas clayton